3/31/11

Possibly too independent...

When I make plans to do something on a day off at home, I don't expect that I should have to share my plans of doing laundry and cleaning out the closet.  This usually results in chaos and arguing due to the fact that I get a tad pissy when I am asked to do other things.  And while we are going 5 years strong, I am having a hard time letting go of my [independence].  For some reason I find it so difficult to say "Actually I had plans to clean the closet and do laundry today" without sounding like a complete bitch.

It's not that I have big secrets.  I have nothing to hide, I just don't care to share my every thought and I prefer to do some things alone.

I guess I'll just leave it at this -- I like my space. Period.

3/15/11

Being a Mom

Being a Mom comes first before anything else in my life.  I'm not perfect, by any means, but I am proud to say that my kids are ok. 

My daughter endured a lot of things she shouldn't have as a baby/toddler because of her father and my lack of getting out of the situation; and I have worked hard to make sure that she has gotten through that barely scarred.  She has some focus issues and likes to lie to me, but isn't that all kids?  I hope so!  I bought her a flute for her birthday.  She is going to learn early so she'll be ahead in Middle School when she takes band.  I am looking forward to teaching her!

My son, well he's lucky, I must say.  He has his Mommy and Daddy together and things are swell in his little world.  Things are so swell that we're a little spoiled and think it's ok to cry to get our way.  With that being said, I am still trying to reach the goal of one day of his life with no crying.  And he's 3.  Every day I wake up and think to myself, "Today might be the day!"  HA. Ha.  It's hilarious because it's always a given that he will cry about something by 10 AM.  Other than crying two to 3 times a day he is a joy.  He is going to grow up to be such a good man--he's already very good about helping me and loves when I ask for his help around the house.  He gladly helps and proudly states, "I take care of my Mommy."